Woke up at 7am. Had to force myself to get out of my bed. Went to bathe and change up to wear traditional clothes. [insert face] Such a waste of time. Went out and off to PPS. Brother and I were ubber lazy. Had enough of it. Had to take pictures after pictures. Videos after videos. Over and done with. Went home. I'm bored now. I feel fatigue. It's soooooo good that i could have time alone yesterday night. I thought about nothing much until i fell asleep. I feel different, do you?

I've made edits. I don't know. But the feeling that i'm feeling is taking over my happiness. I'm not sure why. It comes to visit or to stay? I will just see as the time goes. I miss those times. And i mean to a lot of things. I feel so uneasy. Since last Tuesday. Why? I'm sure this is no good. I sensed it but i'm not pretty sure if i would be right. How crappy can this be? I can't wait for Monday. Weee! I can't wait to get my utter rubbish results. And Terence just told me that half of the class failed Chemistry. OMFG. It's seriously making me lose hope on EVERY subject. I think i'm gonna fail Chemistry and Biology. Pure subjects, how i hate it much.

This will be the first year that i have loads of failing subjects. Oh fxck. Wish me well that i won't get smacked by parents. HIGH hopes, *******s. And i've had enough of helping mum with her parent support shoots. She's there acting stressed and getting all the credits from the school. While behind the doors, I'm the bloody one that is kind enough to do EVERYTHING. Imagine that, even a stupid speech, i have to do. She didn't even ask for a favour but she ordered. If the results is shit, she will shout at me.

Telling me and brother that we don't really say 'thank you' to her. Then what about herself? These are her hormones that was passed to us. She never did said 'thank you' to me whenever i help her. All she do is order, order, order. if it's late, scoldings is what i'd get. Why? Because she told me last minute and forced me to finish it until the early morning before i go to bed and the next day is school day. Simply stupid. Learn how to use the bloody laptop and go do them yourself. I'm doing all the work and there she is looking so stressed up as if she's the one doing it. WEML.

Brother, please talk to her fast, i can't take it any longer. How i wish i have a cold heart like you. Defiant but have a strong point to say. I'm just a fragile heart girl that don't wish to hurt my mum that's why, she stepped on my head much. *****. ISH, i'm so pissed.

Let's go catch a movie!