Hello readers. I haven't had a good sleep. Bad dream. Gah, i'm effing scared when i think about it. [insert sad face] Every once a year that will happen either it's months, weeks or days. Shortest will be a day. Longest when i was in Primary 5 it took 3 months. I failed my subject. I couldn't concentrate. I don't feel safe at home alone or even with my mum. Easy said, i've never felt safe when that came. [insert worried face]

Only a handful knows what i'm talking about or just have a gist of it. Around a year ago, my grandad's elder sister passed. Around a month ago, his younger brother passed. Yesterday, his eldest brother's wife passed. She came by my place. Lucky us, nothing happened to mum. She was scared. Damn, who isn't? That's why i haven't had a good sleep. Thought of waiting for brother to come back but i was too tired. Had to sleep alone. [insert face]

Whatever, i shan't talk about it. It brings back memories i don't want to think of. I'm at starbucks coffee now, waiting for mum. So i thought i should blog. I'm dead bored down here sitting alone by myself and typing and typing. I so can't wait to get started on our preparation of the competition. I shall end off now. My mind is flickering back to the dream i had last night. Gah, it creeps me i swear.

I didn't know you ever existed until that day.