Wyzzie.ray;17.June
accepts life's rollercoaster ride.:)
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Showerings to them.
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YangEn :
YiKai :
Zullie.
myLiteracyStory :
2v6'08
Preparation
Wednesday, 4 June 2008, 15:44:00
Hello readers, I have been feeling not right and uncomfortable due to some reasons. Somethings are better left unknown here. My mood is not in the right mood for the upcoming barbeque. I hope i will get better mentally before friday. Or i will have to mask my real self for the hours of enjoying. While i'm typing here, i have the urge to cry because i couldn't take it what i am going through. Somethings isn't right and i don't know why. I have not been having the mood to blog but for certain reasons, i had to. I feel like leaving my blog dead for awhile but i guess i shouldn't. I want to keep track of my life.
I'm meeting feefa tomorrow to buy the barbeque items. I guess we shall just go to the near by market, NTUC at Jurong Point. I'm lazy to go far and come home with alot of things with me. Maybe i will be meeting IN after we go shopping for the items. I'm broke so i guess we should just go around town to camwhore.[insert smiley] I'm forcing myself not to think about THAT for awhile. I have my own problems to face excluding THAT. Problems is exploding around me. I'm tired of it, i feel like it's worthless for me to live now. I'm being nagged at and have to face alot of it while brother does not. He is busy with his work so he could get out of it frequently. I have been crying for days due to the problems i'm facing and my brain is near to its point of exploding. Why must i be the one to blame and not brother? We, siblings, are in a very good terms most of the time but when it comes to this. I had to suffer more.
Enough of problems, it will kill me soon with THAT coming along, i guess there's a NO WAY out. I'm just stucked. I want to relax myself, go to the beach. Make time for myself alone. Think about THAT in peace. So what if i cry there? It doesn't matter to the people. With all these things around, my mood kept swinging and i guess friends find it hard to understand me. I'm lucky that it's a holiday so not many friends can NOT understand me. I don't know why but i have the urge of hitting someone of the face due to their unfairness and rudeness towards me. It doesn't matter who, i guess i'm being like this due to the problems i'm facing. I'm so stressed out but only one can know what i am really feeling even though i didn't tell or express it. Life is just unfair at certain point but i guess it has its learning point from every unfairness we face.
Let my sorrow stay where they are. Let my happiness come to live for awhile after sorrow. I just can't wait to meet IN and tell out everything we need to say to each other and find the nicest spot to camwhore and everything. It will be fun![insert smiley] i am also missing my cousins, Irah and Yana. Oh, can we like go out and meet each other and fool around with each other? I miss those times. I couldn't meet them at my aunt's house on last Sunday because i had the carnival and went home straight after having dinner with friends. I guess, we should set a date and roam town together and camwhore like we used to! I am also missing my classmates with the bonding and fighting we had during the first semester. Even though the class had conflicts, we still click together and support one another. That is what i really love about my class! They rock your sock![laughs] Jolynn doggie made that our motto.[insert smiley] We shall all meet together when school reopens! I guess i have typed enough for now.